up is down, down is up.....

denny crane. the man knows his stuff. sometimes up is down and vice-versa.

what i wouldn't give to be able at the end of the day to sit on the balcony with a drink (and i suppose a cigar) overlooking the city and unwind. and since we're in dream world - all the weight would float from my shoulders and i'd hit the sack like a child. maybe i'll get to that more in the summer - a little nippy out there to do that now.

i guess it doesn't matter what the method of unwinding is, even if it's this little place called blogger. but whatever the outlet, it is needed on a day like this. expectations were made and then shot down with no explanation whatsoever.

should i have learned from the last time? yes. did i? probably a little....i was a little more restrained in the expectations, but still was pretty excited to meet up. nevertheless, try #2 brought a repeat of result #1.

nervous? that busy? just a tease? not that i have a basis for my feeling, but i think (or maybe i'd like to think) none of the above. i hope nothing is seriously wrong, but considering the circumstances, it is a possibility (and if so - my sincere wishes are with them).

are my thoughts selfish? am i just looking for what i think i'm missing? am i building it up too much? all valid questions to consider - just hopefully not for the next 3 hours trying to get to sleep.

ahh yes....gotta love the brain. but the good news - thursday is up next, then friday, then some good rest and football (and a little painting). and the thoughts of that keeps me as unwound as i need to be for now. good night all....