contentedness (and other made up words)

so i've settled down from my mental rollercoaster ride of a week ago to a state of contentedness. not sure if that's a real word, but i'm going with it. it must be like the feeling that britney spears had when she felt comfortable enough to go out and public and show off all her junk (and yes, i've seen the pics, junk is a good description). or like joe namath when he thought, "man, i'm in a great place in life - in fact, i think i'll tell suzy kolber tonight on monday night football that i'd like to kiss her". not that i'm about to do something that crazy, but i at least have the brainwaves at bay for just a little while anyway.

funny how things go up and down so quick....one day this way, then - as emeril might say - "bam", a full 180 to something else. i suppose i'm old enough to understand that this is the way life works, but every once in a while i get that smack in the face wakeup that reminds me that life can be wonderfully hard (another strange combo of words).

it always comes back to perspective. when my perspective slips a bit, expectations get a smidge high and then a bit of discontentedness (i think i've ran out of prefixes and endings for that one now) shows up just long enough to piss a person off - like an annoying guest. and always, just when things seem to be back to where i am handling well, a good surprise happens.

we'll see what wednesday brings.....from my earlier contact, i've already had (and overcome) the overexpectations, so am keeping my hopes a big restrained. should be good, but we'll see.

just amazing the difference in my life from only a week ago.

2007 is starting out trying to make a name for itself - and i gotta respect it for that.